i just read someone else's blog. that someone whom i never thought would feel that way, sentimental. i guess i was wrong about him. very wrong. i understand his sadness, his pain. something broke my heart yesterday, my sissy cried. since young, i always tried my very best to protect her though im younger. all i wanted was to see her being happy. she cried. i knew she was crying. but i forced myself not to look at her because i knew if i would, i would have cried too. i wanted to help but i know she wouldnt want my help. so i approach him. the him that i thought would definately help my sissy cause i trust him. though i know it would hurt him too to know that she has been crying but its only him that i trust for now to keep her safe. no matter how hard i try to make her happy, she just doesnt seem to know. she probably thinks that im a pain in the ass but all i wanted was her to be safe and happy. i dont really care about what she thinks of me as long as i'm able to protect her from harm. which would be what i've been doing all along. i hate to see her cry, cause my heart would wrenched.

sissy please stop crying. i'll always be there. you know i would. love.